i cleaned the whole house yall! washed sheets and pillow cases , bleach in the dish water. scrubbed the shower, cleaned the whole bathroom, swept and cleaned the room 😭😭feel a little okay!
not gonna lie, now that im sober, my friend and i were the only two Black Women at the music video and the white gurlfriend of the Black artist whose video it was kept trying to make excuses for why she wanted to switch us out with other models multiple times. ima wait for the video to come out to see if she had them cut us out of scenes or if im just overthinking before i say something. in private of course but like dang gurl why even approve specific models if you were going to be moving weird like that.
i always feel like i talk too much 😫 i be getting anxiety after i say something and then just being stared at😭i b wanting to shrink in size so no one can see or hear me maaann.. i think it’s from feeling like im too much for ppl ☹️that’s y ion even like to talk like that no mo
not gonna lie im one of the most negative ppl i know but bc i acknowleged that and im constantly working on changing my mindset to at least stop the negative thoughts in their tracks. ive been practicing for about a month and the results are coming out pretty great . really trying not to claim things as fact like "im broke" nah fuck that , "im temporarily low on funds that will return to me 10fold". just reassuring myself its all temporary. i hope i can manifest the life i want fr
thinking about white washed history still being taught in schools and how Black historians and historians of color should get together and rewrite history books so the kids can stop being cheated out of a true education